But did you see what I did? I presented you with something out of the blue. Something that you were convincing yourself was not possible. You had given up. And as soon as I provided for you, you almost forgot. Shocking wasn't it? You haven't had a wake up thought like that in a while, have you?
I know you are having a hard time. I know it is not comfortable right now. I know that what comes along doesn't fit exactly into what you think things should be. But wait. Take the moment that is in front of you. Take today. I have tomorrow already taken care of. I am standing in front of the past. Don't try to peak around me. There are no "But... but... but..." conversations. Just stand in the midst of today, with me.
And wait.
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ah, Amy. This is where I am now. And it is painful and good to be learning to let go. To even become aware... without knowing how to let go... of all the ways I tend to beat myself up. Daily. Momently;) I think of you often, sister. Hope you are writing somewhere, regularly. And forgiving yourself when you flail. This. This is what I am learning. This is, perhaps, all we are to learn. Self-love. God-love. Others-love. It is all the same... and beating myself up keeps ego in control, keeps me out of Love and bound by fear. Thank God for new mercies. Every morning. Every moment. Love, Anna
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